spent today quiet. alone at a friend's apartment. couldn't listen to music without singing along. studying has never felt so forced. just like posturing as a college student.

if all else fails, ask them about what classes they are taking, majors, futures, internships, lsat or mcat, princeton prep or kaplan - see? meeting people isn't that hard after all. dry chapagne last night at old co-op as miniature soda can bombs exploded ironically in front of soda hall. hookah on doorsteps outside at midnight felt grand.

can't stop running away from things.
escape shouldn't feel this necessary. nor easy.
it's all sha clack clack anyway. moodiness. man periods. inversed machismo.

crazy to see the caps and gowns again. once distant, now a check away. not ready. never will be. maybe i'll get a free key chain.

summer starts the 18th. lego castles with heineken is the agenda. registration begins now.

songs of the day:
El-P "Intrigue in the House of India" - great track off HighWater and Collecting the Kid
The Decemberists "The Bachelor and the Bride"
The Unicorns "Jellycones"